The weather today is so beautiful.
Sitting here, in Farringdon, absorbing the suns warm energy, I can’t help but ponder my year so far.
Honestly, its been a pretty emotional roller coaster ride, with so many twists, turns, loops, drops and hang times. From fun to loneliness. From joy to depression. From happy times to ruined times. From being healthy to poisoning myself with alcohol.
There are still things lingering deep in me that I thought would have gone by now, but actually haven’t… and its okay. Because the feeling will subside at some point. But until then, it makes me realise exactly what I appreciate, love and cherish in life… and how I want to be as a person.
I’ve hated myself for the longest time now, for what I feel was a mistake I made. And maybe it was? But week by week, I notice the teachings in this “mistake”.. the lessons to be learned.. and the opportunities for me to become better.
I still hope my love, passion and good will are felt by others, as I feel them in my heart.
This year is the year of change for me. If not for anything else in my life, than just for who I am as a person. If I achieve that, my 2014 is a success.
Thank you to all that has come to me, stuck with me, and passed by me… and for all that is coming to me now! And thank you to all the people in my life, still providing me with your love and support. I am grateful for you all. Really and truly. Thank you.
Have a beautiful and loving Sunday everyone x